have i not enough?

sometimes i'm not even sure why i forced myself to join IT. When i was choosing school, i lied to myself. i chose IT but deep inside i'm sure i could have scored better in biology or even chemistry, maths or even malay. but i was too negative. i hate the teachers who dun give you the realistic view of the world and always look down on weak students.WEAK? if it was sure to be weak i would have slumped my GCE results then. It's ironic how i could have been so great in sec school and pay too much attention to self-bias teachers who just can't wait to get students to hate them. i hate my biology teacher. but i had interests in it but that made me lose my chances. i guessed i've got a a major hate teacher sentiments when i was in sec school. but hell yeah i Scored and proved my point and i should have not listened to your past remarks and pursue my own choices. This Diploma cert is just a shit to me now. yes it does bring ur income higher but overall, i'm not doing what i've loved to do. 6 yrs down the road, i'm still not satisfied with the diploma i received. It would have been selfish of me and it's always the same arguments that human just seems unhappy to get enough. i just felt that my world crashed the day i got my O results and i'm still not over it. it's so much worst than a BGR break up saga. i do hope the current test results will just help me bring more light to my future and my ambition...if not i guess the closest ambition is becoming a tai-tai (provided Smigel can help me become one. heehee). am i a procastinator?

nuff said i just finished formatting my system and hope it goes on well again. now with the password and stuff. i just need the spyware stuff to refrain attackes yet again.. hmmph any suggestions?

Smigel just bought the X-box Console so lucky me can now swop games with him.. hehehe probably got the craze from the frequents rounds we did at Plaza Singapura!

been weeks since i met Smigel and passed another week with no meet ups with him..haiz i'm missing him even more than ever!

Did some catchin up with the bride to be. it'll be the first ever my closest fren who has been my listening ear, my guide, my fren, my gossip partner, my partner in crime, my mentor and most importantly the person i grew to love so much like a sister to be wedded very very soon. I'm so happy for her and i hope all goes well. prayers to her big day going well and smooth. i'm gonna have to book my leave very very soon.. the big sigh is gonna be left aside and i'm feeling the pinch of how her stress out days before the final few months went for her....once u're dere.. u'll noe how the feeling blows all over u, right, no?