Snaps of her bundled finger

fedup

I totally detest my work environment. Sick and i hate my users. do u thhink u are some gd scholars? go picture urself in the mirror and think bout how well u think u r. Ugly users. U are just mirror how 'beuatiful' ur agency is. wake up lah.

The lil accident

Speak of being cautious of my lil girl, i had my first accident with Balqis. Yes u saw it right...
I went mum. Shocked. Numb.and i became a freak.

It was late thursday night and i have been eagerly waiting to trim her fingers as it was growing extremely fast. I remembered trimming it off last sat and I had to sit down with her again to trim off her nails again!

HUbby has switched on both table lamp and the room light. I was praying that i dun clip her skin off.
Balqis being her, she can't sit tight. She moved her hands up and down and while i was abt to clip it, My dear hubby switched of the room light and my finger instantly clipped her 'nail' WHen i lifted the nail clipper, i still see the long nails and to my horror.. blood started to appear.

I cliped off her skin. yea and her reactions: hysterically 2-4 seconds after the click she exhaled a loud hysterical cry. Squirming her eyes until it was blushing red.

SHIT! I felt so shit! thought i saw blood and yeah it oozed so much i became a feak. Luckily hubby was near me he grabbed Balqis and I think I was frantically tossing about.
The blood did not stop bleeding profusely until we put her off to sleep. Luckily my bro was around he was more reaxed to put the bandage for my baby.

It's healing now and alhamdulillah she was fine and tehre was no infection or any fever developed.

The lil accident

test

breastfeeding blues

I am proud to breastfeed for my lil balqis but now i'm wondering whether i should just let her breast feed till 6 mths or make it two yrs... expanding means that i will endure the pains of her first teeth numbing on my nipple! ok but on the otherhand i dun foresee me having the heart to pull her away from breast feeding afterall, it's even more nutritious than SIMILAC or S-26 or any other brands available in the market.. However i want to kill AVENT for sucking and pumping my money out!!! grhhh!!!

I bought a single pump of the electric pump for myself since i thought that i might afterall need one myself.. expressing milk at work was NOOT EASY.. must Queue or even book or make sure i came in time, one room and 5-6 other mothers need to express their milk. And what a mistake of getting the single electric pump.. 45 minutes for me to extract boths sides! I sooo regret not reaching for the dual pump and now that my single electric pump is dying on me.. i so want hubby to get me the dual pump but it's gonna be raya soon! sigh..must save noney!!! i guess i have to make do changing it to a manual pump for the time being and wait till end of nov to get a great dual pump and hopefully it stays working for AT LEAST A YEAR not just 3 mths like my avent and worst of all, i was so confident it wun die on me and i THREW AWAY the WARRANTY!!The only good thing bout the pump: It managed to empty abt 8oz of milk.. which is twice the amt of the manual pump!

With fasting mth i hope my supply does not deplete. dah lah pump manual ni slow, it's flow of pumping sucks la.. not much get extracted and it makes me feel engorged.


Balqis is much smarter now dah pandai acting lah.. now she is practising muka sedih lah and makin the ummmm sound. WHen she feeds she does the 'ummmmmmmmm' all the way! ok and she has been getting a lot of 'nah rasa ni, rasa tu' from the atok and nenek and my sis!! spoil my plan of fully fed breast milk till she is 6 mths :( .. much more she's beginning munching and making the chewing moves i was left with no choice and bougt her brown rice and some juices .. sigh
Loads of my friends are popping soon. Now i am worried. I do hope breast feeeding can help family planning,.. i still want baby balqis to have younger siblings but not now lor.. hurhur