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and when she speaks

Friday, August 31, 2007

27 april 2007

. The memories fresh even though the wound has healed.

EDD was supposed to be on may 7 but Balqis can't wait to breathe the air outside. Instead,my cousin delivered her baby, diah, on my EDD date when hers was supposed to be on 19 may!For myself, Labour came ten days before my feeling2 to become mommy and i never realised it was gona be sooner than expected.

That Morning,April 27 2007 I have applied for Annual leave and it has already been approved a few days back. I was to go for my weekly check up. Unfortunately a colleague of mine need to take UL since his wife was in Hospital due to a cyst surgery so i volunteeered to cancel my LEAVE and take PM--time off instead.

27 Apr 4.15AM:
I felt a tinge of liquid coming out from my cervix while in deep sleep. it felt like a dream, like i need to relieve myself. Thank allah i woke up in time! Fearing of waterbag burst or wetting my bed with pee, I woke myself up. Before going to the bathroom, I sms-ed my colleague to confirm that I'm taking his shift and working till 1PM today. Getting up from the bed was a killler. I had difficulty walking.In the bathroom, i sleepily emptied myself. I became wide awake by the sight of Blood. I was hoping that it was a false alarm.There were pains coming and going from the abdomen. After cleaning myself up, i went to my room, double confirmed all my stuff is in my hospital bag and woke my hubby to get prepared that maybe i might deliver lil Qish.
Hubby thinks that it may just be a false alarm. My parents thought so too so all of them except me, went back to sleep. I was too worried, angry at myself that i'm too heavy to toss and turn,forcing myself to sleep. In the end i gave up, Switched on the table lamp, and took out my PSP instead to keep my worries away. It did not help much though i felt like astabs on my tummy but it comes an goes. Was it contractions? i was not even sure. So i ignored them.

5.45AM:
I started having Pains again. It came and go and it was very mild. Consulted my parents and they advised me to wait. Considering the pain i went through, i decided to call my TL and my colleague to inform them that i may afterall not come to work this very morning.

6.30AM:
I was unsure if the pains were contractions. I merely counted the cycle coz acccording to the baby books i read, contractions comes in and goes regularly when delivery time is near. Furthermore, i have never had stomach cramps during my teenage years. So there was a lot of doubt on how contractions really felt.The number of pains kept coming but the pain was irregular and i was not sure if i may labour that day since EDD is ten days away. Plus i so wanted a late preggie maybe on may 19 or 18. 19 will fall on my late-aunt's birthday and 18 will be my bro's.

7.30AM:
The pain became more regular and i decided that maybe we should head to the clinic and check if i will be labouring today. well since the package has been paid for and consultation is free, i might as well let the gynae check me up. My hubby applied for UL. My parents and us got ourselves ready to the doctor's. Mom prepared me two half boiled eggs.. which i had a hard time swallowing.

8.45 AM:
On the way there, we called the Dr's emergency line to inform him that i'm having bleedings and pains. He advised me to report to the CLinic and i acknowledged.

9.00AM:
We reached Gleneagles and i was given the normal test, blood pressure, weight and urine tests in Dr Chow's Clinic. It was just two days ago that i had my check ups with the gynae, and he mentioned that it may be on this wek or early next week that Baby will be due. The urine test was a killer.. org dah lah sakit2 nak kena bend and take the urine test lagi..so troublesome!

9.15AM:
I was placed in one of the clinic's room to check my Contractions. For half hour they monitored, the nurse kept coming in to check on me every now and then. The contractions were regular and the nurse explained that my contractions are reular.She felt that my labour will be soon. Dr Chow came around ten AM.The cervix has opened 2 cm. He advisd me to ward myself to the hospital and verified that my delivery could be some time in the late afternoon.

10.40AM:
By this time i was feeling weak. I felt like hugging my knees and ball myself up. But of course i couldn't! I had to walk my way to the receptionist and walking there was painful. Plus i was bleeding badly. I managed to stop by their supermart and grabbed more maternity pads and disposable panties as well as shopping last minute for my baby's tauge head pillow! i sure got reprimanded from Hedir haha! THen my parents and him had their breakfast before admitting me in. I could not swallow anything. I felt like throwing up. Ard 11. AM I was wheeled to the First labour ward, while my hubby settled the check in. A friendly nurse took down my details an verified my information. Her qns were never ending i knew i was growing restless. There were several trips to the ladies.. how not, once i changed my clothes to their pyjamas, i ahd to go in again for urine test again. then they asked me to go again to save urine. Then she put me on the same machine that Dr Chow had in his clinic to check my contractions. They checked my data and placed some liquid in my anus so that in 5 minutes i will pass everything out. with that medication, i had to wobble my way twice to the rest room. tak faham langsung sey dorang ni orang dah cakap orang tajk larat nak jalan pun terpaksa... I rested and Dr chow came out to explain more of the pain reliefs and the availibility of Epidurals and entonox and the jabs at my thighs..to keep me civilised. I was the first mummy wheeled on that 4 bedded labour room.
By 12noon, all the beds were occupied and were on the contraction machine. I was annoyed with the contracion beeps from the oppposite neighbours and i was a real cranky wifey. I conplaint and there were so much anger boiling due to the noise and the pain was excruciating.
I couldn't let my hubby out of sight. Once he went out to update my status to the family my anger rose up.I was cranky cranky.One minute i'll be laughing, the next in pain and trying to ball myself up, the next minute, i'll be sleepy and laughing, and another minute in silent mode. I counted the time, rest and laughed and fell asleep as i was real tired plus.Sleeping only absordbed 30% of the pain.

1:00PM :
. I started to get more pains and it was longer. i was merely crying myself out. I was hating myself. Unbearable pain really. Even Hedir's presence could not console me. Dr checked my cervix and advised that it is dilating. i could feel that i could not walk. He asked for my consent to burst the waterbag.. oh my gosh.. it felt like i was peeing!!!!and i could not sto the water from coming out.SOmetimes,, there were even feels of blood blooping out but i was not even sure.

1:30PM:
I cried and cried continuously and then DR Chow came in back again and confirmed with me if i want Entonox for pain relief, or the epidural. I gave myself up and told him that i need the entonox. I was placed on the gas

2.00PM:
I was warned not to breath too much of it otherwise i will have a hard time on labour. It felt like ages but after breathing the gas, On/off i felt the pain and also went to sleep. The sleep was probably one/two minutes but it felt like ages. . but.. i was damn stupid. hahah i din know how to breathe properly!!!!!.. 80% of the time i did not inhale the ENtonox properly thus i had to bear the pain so much and cursed the gas as uneffective wahahaha.. !!I So that half hour was painful. Dr Chow came again half hour later and checked my cervix. It was 5-6 cm now. He advised the nurses to bring me to the labour ward. Imagine moving yourself when you feel that something is coming out from your tummy, mixed with stomach cramps and in pain. i nearly fell when i accidentally slipped. Luckily hubby was there to helpme. The Nurse then wheeled me to the labour ward.
During the transportation, i felt weak. I wished standing up or sitting could lessen my pain but it was the same no matter how i rest my position. i could just slump myself and cried endlessly. Plus, entonox was stopped.Thinking back i was so like a kid who just cried and cried when he could not get his lil new truck. The labour room was much more bigger and comforting and i knew that was it. I'll be a mummy soon. i may deliver anytime now. There was a huge digotal clock mpuntedon the wall. The labour bad was smacked in the middle. The pain was the same no matter how i rest my position. i could just slump myself and cried endlessly. Thinking back i was so like a kid who just cried not getting his lil new truck.

3.15PM:
I grew hysterical. The labour room's entonox was working. I would doze on and off and i got the hang of using the gas. I became high until i had no strength to even mouth it properly.I knew i was screaming so loudly and crying badly that i thought about how mom felt when having me and my siblings..ok that really made me even more tearful

3.30PM:
I could not take it anymore, then i felt like i need to pee and i remember screaming my lungs out bearing the pain with the entonox at work and remembered dozing off soon after i screamed and slept after screaming and got awoken by the sudden numbness of pain and screamed and cried badly that it' s painful.I want to roll myself like a ball but i can't move a limb. I felt imprisoned by the effects of entonox. It was a cycle.scream. sleep. cry. scream. cry. sleep. cry. sleep. scream in my sleep.
HUbby was steadily relaxing and SLEEPING ON A MASSAGE CHAIR IN THE LABOURWARD FOR THE DADDY!!! he has dozed off while watching tv. HE slept while i scream until i had no strength to scream.. i wished i could just jolt him but i couldn't. He was only awoken by the nurse when i told the nurse to wake him up.Then the phone kept ringing on his side and he had to go in and out of the waRd. i was pissed i want him to be by my side(so mom to be..PLS OFF UR HUBBY's HP when in labour) coming in AND OUT ..
And i remembered i prayed hard that it would end soon. I spoke nicely to the nurse, while in tears that Balqis wants to come out now. I feel like i need to pass motion but i can't and I kept telling her that i think she's coming out, then i felt like i need to pee again and pass motion and it came alternately and sometimes i felt like doing both. the only word that came out from the nurse was,"you want to pee, pee lah, want to berak also can,.. just pee lah i can help clean you up. YOu pee how many times also i still clean you up wan. i wun mind. berak also i clean" gosh! i clung on to Hedir and even swiped his jacket tightly. and repetitively exclaimed that Balqis wants to come out of my womb... he just nod...yes JUST NOD!!!! and I HAD TO REMIND HIM TO TELL THE NURSE BUT HE JUST NOD i screamed at the nurse crying and exclaiming that it's painful and i need to pass motion but i can't. i told the nurse to call the dr and instead she just checked my cervix.she asked me to relax and just pee.yes i pee-ed ok..*blush* and i even can remind her that i will pee at that time. of coz she cleaned it without any complains. she told me not to worry and told me that if i need to pee again she will clean me up again same if i want to pass motion.
Holding the mask to breathe the entonox was by then, a challenge. I had to get Hedir to place it on and take it off ater a few counts, I could only reply to the voices. There were several ocassions when i had to search in vain for the mask to be placed on my nose/mouth instead... i just felt it searching around my face. With the pain plus no entonox, i pulled some strength, trying to glimpse around the room for the sight of Dr chow. Instead i saw the nurse moving swftly around the room. By Instinct, i knew it's time but Dr CHow was still not in sight.. Well iwhen i turned to my hubby on my right side, i saw hubby, SLEEPING WHILE STANDING!!! no wonder the entonox mask was all ard my face!!!!!!!!!i did the grab and pull his jacket and cried again!oh i shocked him but it was only a while.. he dozed again for a while though. By then i had remembered my friend's advisee not to take too much of the gas as i may have difficulty pushing. so lucky hubby i was not 100% on anger. Plus HUbby was merely saved by Dr CHow.. he finally came and said ok we're set and ready to deliver yourbaby and that woke my hubby up.
Of course we were excited and i have been so overcomed with entonox that fear, pain, excitement,eagerness became tears. Suddenly reality struck me. there were a lot of thoughts already running. How will she look like or how well she is were all far behind me. The thing i was thinking about was how to push! of course the dr told me the instruction and all but i myself was not sure whether i heard him well and if i will do it correctly. I was told to be in position(dunno how to describe lah) and ya the process went on .. i gripped my hubby's hand, breathe,breathe,breathe,breathe and after the first push, POP!I heard my baby cry!well the berak feeling sure went away!! i felt light and i dunno why but i was in tears there were cold sweat running down. I can freshly remember how i started to cry because i am now mom, masyaallah, i have been blessed with a sweet beautiful baby girl, and I was crying and praying she will be healthy. I was crying because my AUnt did not get to see her. She has been the most enthusiastic aunt to receive Balqis but departed in february. I was crying because i experienced motherhood. labour. Never easy.
well after labour u may think that it's all over non-mom .. still one more oush for the placenta, and then its over. Fortunately alhamdulillah it was just one push after a few breath.

I would say that i had been a very happy mummy alhamdulillah my laabour was not till night and Blaqis has been a blessing today, everyday and the days to come.
She's my light to our happiness.Our love to the years
to come. Insyallah our future to seek what's ahead and our motivator to lead her to the path ahead. Mummy and daddy has promised to shield you and protect you from upbringing you wrongly and insyallah we will provide you with as much teachings of duniawi and ukhori

I would have loved her date to be on may 19 (it was my late aunt's bday date) or may 18, her pak cu's birthday(which he was solely praying my baby's birthday would fall on his birthday)but to the extent, i was glad the labout was smooth. no epidurals though balqis cam out big(3.655kg! thanks to ANmum milk). It was also her birth that i found out her tok anjang will be sharing his birthday celebration with balqis in th eyears to come!We are just so glad that she chose to come out on a nice comforting friday ewvening, with presence of her mom and dad, and the mid wife and of course my Dr chow

i sempat msg my members that i swore to update oh and i felt that they have subscribed to me heheh it was like spore idol voting for Balqis there were so many replies that i felt tired sms-ing than feeling the tiredness of post labour!

Mom feedbacked that she could hear me scream from outside the maternity ward. pls i had te last ward from the door..she was at the lift and could hear me whine and scream and cry.. so imagine my pain tsk tsk.. i felt so like alil kid!malu nyer! Next baby, i must bring something to bite to refrain my screaming! my next labour i will ask my hubby to TURN OFF HIS HP and mine... ahhaha becioz i was darn irritate that he was receiving so many calls to pick from mine and his! duing the labour!


Monday, August 06, 2007

366

Dear Balqis,
It has been a a great 365 days sharing the small room at Atok's house and sleeping with Papa everyday. Be it at your Papa's mom's place or your atok's house.

How time has flown.. and we are now counting down to your birthday instead of our next anniversary. For the first time ur Papa made the effort to remember our important day.

He has been the best person sharing momy's cranky, silly, mood, mummy's giggle and has never a bit complained if mommy snores or drool(which i hope not). He has been the most patient man next to ur atok. Let's pray that daddy decides to be a big house for me an you so that we can paint the walls of your room, decorate your rooms with more toys. and mummy can have her own kitchen to cook and bake cakes for Papa and u

We apologise for not getting you too much toys and we've stopped buying you more clothes now... tehr's not much space left for our tiny weeny room.. mummy cannot possibly manifest your aatok's hall with your toys! we will either complain and nag that we are wasting a lot of money on this and that, we will not like the sight of too much stuff at home dear.

Nevertheless, We thank Allah for you are the greatest present to us. It can never be matched with anything in this world. We love you lots, superbaby.


Wednesday, August 01, 2007

surprise surprise..

Never mind bout my labour experience... it's still not completed..haha but just this short notice..
  1. i can't wait for sept 1!!!! weeeee!!!!!!! :)
  2. I'm going to be an aunt for another baby... coming 2008 ..wwaaaaaaa my lil Balqis will be a sis then!! so fast!!!!
  3. Baby Balqis is so cute and lovely getting more and more adorable.. like mummy and daddy ..lols she turns herself now and i love her chuckle upon seeing me!


alright i'm back to work... and boy i'm more stressed than ever. more challenges now.. but we'll see how it goes. and i fail to keep my promise to post my labour experience.. oops.
lunch over. toodles.