my consecutive blogging

I think it must have been my exitement to run away from work that i keep on blogging. Whoa third str8 days after so long of disappearance and busy as a bee when i am online at work!

It's been an anxious wait i'm not even sure if i should feel anxious with 2 weeks plus to reach the 40 weeks, it may and could even stretch to the latter. The signs og pain is there bt i ain't even sure if it was the contractions or what they called it Braxton hicks.
being my first sure i had funny and queasy feeling of my Apple Pie. When it was the first time Apple Pie move, i was not even sure and i tot it was just the umpbilical cord movement or my tummy hungry. Until much later i realised it was my apple pie.

I also did realised that i became so camera shy.. i have no photos of ME of my progress in my bulging tummy. Maybe i became camera shy and i was afraid to look at how plump i grew and how horrible it is to see me walk.. Macam Barney.Sampai camera dah rosak pun :(. Even my lil nephew,Akyash. mimic my walk, ok. And giggled. tehn he will deny of any baby in his tummy. He's so in love with my tummy with his chants of "baby! baby! and poking his lil nosy finger endlessly when he remembered Apple Pie's existance when he sat with me.
Oshie is getting restless hearing to my answer when she questioned,"Bila baby nak kluar.." every week when we meet. My repeated answer of, "nanti dia klaur lah..lagi kejap lagi" is disappointing her.

Maybe tonight i should make full use of my Hubby's digi since it's been left to dust. Take picture of my swollen feet and the bulging tummy and my plump face la.. moans*

words of "motivation".. "inspiration"

When i walked in the office today..I did not realise some changes that came until i was bout to exit the office and saw that there were three notices smacked at the gantry before i leave the office.

All three notices were 'inspirational' words accompanied by comic strips:

- you do not have to work hard all the time if you work smart
-The grasss is not always greener on the other side: FOCUS ON WHAT YOU HAVE NOT WHAT YOU DON'T
-Technology is an enabler and does not resolve everything: YOU ARE IRREPLACEABLE

hmm.. for you to ponder. The second remark reminded me the song from TRAVIS, Side, one of my favourites however it has the opposite meaning. Below are the lyrics to my lovely travis song i onced felll in love with when i was in my poly days:

something to ponder...

WHY EMPLOYEES LEAVE ORGANISATIONS ? - Azim Premji, CEO- Wipro

Every company faces the problem of people leaving the company for better pay or profile.

Early this year, Mark, a senior software designer, got an offer from a prestigious international firm to work in its India operations developing specialized software. He was thrilled by the offer.

He had heard a lot about the CEO. The salary was great. The company had all the right systems in place employee-friendly human resources (HR) policies, a spanking new office,and the very best technology,even a canteen that served superb food.

Twice Mark was sent abroad for training. "My learning curve is the sharpest it's ever been," he said soon after he joined.

Last week, less than eight months after he joined, Mark walked out of the job.

Why did this talented employee leave ?

Arun quit for the same reason that drives many good people away.

The answer lies in one of the largest studies undertaken by the Gallup Organization. The study surveyed over a million employees and 80,000 managers and was published in a book called "First Break All The Rules". It came up with this surprising finding:

If you're losing good people, look to their immediate boss. Immediate boss is the reason people stay and thrive in an organization. And he 's the reason why people leave. When people leave they take knowledge,experience and contacts with them, straight to the competition.

"People leave managers not companies," write the authors Marcus Buckingham and Curt Coffman.

Mostly manager drives people away?

HR experts say that of all the abuses, employees find humiliation the most intolerable. The first time, an employee may not leave,but a thought has been planted. The second time, that thought gets strengthened. The third time, he looks for another job.

When people cannot retort openly in anger, they do so by passive aggression. By digging their heels in and slowing down. By doing only what they are told to do and no more. By omitting to give the boss crucial information. Dev says: "If you work for a jerk, you basically want to get him into trouble. You don 't have your heart and soul in the job."

Different managers can stress out employees in different ways - by being too controlling, too suspicious,too pushy, too critical, but they forget that workers are not fixed assets, they are free agents. When this goes on too long, an employee will quit - often over a trivial issue.

Talented men leave. Dead wood doesn't.

"Jack Welch of GE once said. A company's value lies "between the ears of its employees".

feeling2 mummy

So much have been going on for past of alomost 9 months after marriage life. It has been full of ups and downs with stress of work and time management.. ya i am still sore bout my digicam gone waste... but i can't stop but share my experience which was my initial plan of blogging tonight.

My baby is extremely ACTIVe.. bump is all over my tummy and she shakes her asss many times a day. The gynae visit have been weekly and alhamdulillah all was fine. Apple pie is all in place ready to enter the world insyallah. She loves to move when i am at work.. i guess she thought i was talking to her when i was with my customer. She's got lots of things in hand now. More clothes expected to be given to her by her older cuzzie Aida.

Initially during my first trimester, I was informed that my baby is small and i'm losing weight so doctor advised me to eat more. ok eat more then baby came out big after ending of second trimester..grrh ..when he measured the baby's body andThere were scares of me being diabetic due to the sudden raise of weight in me and my baby size.. We got worried and even Dr Chow was worried. he suggested for the OGTT test and alhamdulillah it came out negative. And a checked today showed Apple pie is in the ok range. so a big sigh left me and i've done the swab test today. APple pie is in norm size now and i'm so glad! With the day nearing my appt with him is growing more often,So now it's weekly and every week i wait anxiously for blood stains or my water bag to burst for signs that may trigger my Apple pie to launch. Next week he'll confirm again and gauge the time range my baby may come out.

When Dr Chow is out to deliver babies.. i wait anxiously for my bay to get scanned. The doctor wait is ok unless the gynae s off to the delivery bed. BUt i kill my boredom with chats from the friendly nurses and of coz made friends with the mummy there and when i'm bored, they have a library of baby books to choose from..from massage for baby to the mummy and how to bath the baby and how the baby's placenta looks like and etc.

I do enjoy my visits to the gynae, several times with my Precious and numerous times with my mom, and Dad, managed to see his lil grandchild moving rounding about.. when i was in my second trimester. Every visit was accompanied by the scan photos and i anxiously showed to my hubby when he can't attend the appt. . Of course he will speak to the picture.. which was amusing, at first until i told him he should be speaking with the baby on my tummy. And i enjoyed the nights we washed our legs to sleep. Before the gd nights, he will ngaji for the lil apple pie.. and look after me when i have sleepless sick nights. There were typical cramps and of coz complaints of pain in the middle of the night and my Precious has never complaint of his lack of sleep with me waking him up every time.. even the ocassional trips to the toilet, the hubby has been at best to hug me after i get back to bed. *sweet* Then there were bumpy swollen leg of mine where its bulging and showing like an elephant leg. Butinsyallah these signs are wonders of pregnant moms.

I can't deny that i'm fully afraid of my responsibilities.. months to a wifey and now to a wifey plus mommy, i am still learning to cook contented big breakfast for my Preciuos which so far he is delighted to have especially with the company of me and bro. Then there werre clothes to take care of, and alhamdulillah i'm staying with my mom so i have less load to think of at the moment. Which this will change soon if My precious deciced that three is a crowd in our lil squeezy room.

The room, It's like a warzone full of stuff. mine his and Apple Pie. Things are piling and i'm making effort to either throw my lil memories of childhood i left with me like donating them and not keeping them. Mum say i'm a junker. I supposed she should replace it with a 'Collector' of memories.(i still have my projects from sec school hidden away in the cupboard..terceruk-ceruk tepi so mom wun nag)

Apart from life full of wait, I'll be waiting for baby to come home every tues to thursday where he can only be home after ten..sigh another commitment phase i'll be enduirng for four years..

Time to bed.. seee y'all

lost

It was days when i thought everything was all fine and going well.,all packed and ready and left with just one thing to pack and go anytime the time comes.. when this presious thing caught me dumb struck. I tested my digicam for a test to get well, all my things up.. guezz what.. the image i took came out bluryyy.. oh i thought it was probably the aperture.. what shit.. reset and still the thing came out dizzy!!!!! i am suuuuu Fu*king PISSED! my bday present baby bought me has swelled up to a useless digi.. great. ALL for passing it around and letting pple use them because they need one to loan..and the last hands denied that it was even used.. i am so pissed at myself. When i need to use it most it just dies.. and the last hand was not even me!! the last i tested was all so fine and working.. but now?? i am so utterly disappointed.

So much for the happiness i had and the excitement. NOW i have to put aside some money to get a new digi! and far most disappointing is mine is much newer than my presious's DIGICAM and it's so going strong and cool and not even spoilt. Great what can i say? no more loaning of the digicam? i say maybe that should solve my anger? i feeel like strangling thelast person who really made me feel so sore that my digi is not alive and kicking. How i wish baby is back home now... and i guess him hearing bout hit, he'll be kinda sad but may just console me that it was alright. BUT i dun feel it is!!!argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!