DAzeD

A closest friend had to remove her fetus as it had no heartbeat. I shall keep it to myself. For her i pray she will be strong. I'm sure there's always a gd reason for why Allah let that happened. Insyallah she'll get a great kid soon insyallah with teh next attempt. Never give up hope.
I love you. And u are the most welcomed person to be my insyallah kid's god mother. I assure you that.

Baby Aida has grown up.. so the tembawmms and adorable!! she has splashes of her mom, my cuzzie and the dad of coz lah and some oarts of the ching chong mata from Muzakir by smallest cuzzie till date(which in due time will be overtaken by a new born cuzzie soon from my aunt who got married last yr)

Nights are sleepless for me.. basically i wished i have no problems to sleep.. and i can just wake up feeling fresh and ready for work. Instead of snoozing myself two three times and even not hearing the snooze two three times more, falling into deep sleep and ended up late for work.
I wished i had more deep sleep at night then the early mornings pls. Baby, mummy needs sleep lah. Daddy also affected with the sleep coz mummy can't sleep the next person she turns to ur daddy.
The body aches are worsening and goodness ya ampun.. my pain makes me so hard to walk these days and i wished i had more strength to fight the pain. I may just end up crying.
and i can cry evenmore thinking about work. I grew absent minded and i lost count of my baby's week. great right. everyday slog like shit and everything is all our fault SLA fail Agent NR too much . Fcu& lah. i detest this place so much no welfare shit to think of us. working so hard and getting nothing but why this never do why that never do how come this like this like that. so they just woke up from the den that we are doing things wrongly. So are they perfectoes.. pls my pleasure maybe u should seat on my desk answer my calls and relate teh experience you have. i think u may not even understand because u may just receive the norm pple calls but what bout the nasty pple huh.
grrh ...
i just cant wait for my super duper long break spend soon ... just soon