my longest stride

It has been so long since i pen down my thoughts to this blog. A day to hari raya and i'm still at work buzzing and trying to decrease the cases i have. grrrh...
and i hope it's half day today for all of us, muslim agents.

I'm trying to enlighten my mood by not thinking too much of work here.. but sadly how not to!!!! the calls are ringing non stop and they're so relaxed trying to act busy.. last day of pusas also can get me fumed and feels like i just did headbanging. Pple are all going home but i'm stuk at work. they say we may be able to be released early.. ya 3PM.. work from 8-3!!! at least 9-3 something. oh fish. work sux in reality.

it will be a very different raya with two more added plus two more coming to the family. Insyallah But there is still a hole in my heart. I'm missing her greatly.my grandma has been so consistent in my mind that i feel so empty without her and i wished she would have seen me and was by my side when i got married. It has been yrs since she left and i sure miss teh raya mood i had from my mom's side. I wished they have the same enthusiasm as my dad's side.

The schedule tomorrow will be jampacked. i hope my parents will manage to finish all the houses by 2PM and cover as moany houses as we can so that i dun disappoint my in-laws and we can get moving to his side then.

Ths ramadhan travelled really fast and insyallah i would have ZERO hutang if i pass today's hurdle!! yeahoo! it's been a VERY long time since i had zero hutang!! hahahaha!

Another yr of no break fast with kak juli. which was weird coz we missed it twice already. I'm quite saddened that marriage life really made us no time for each other but i hope next time it wun't happen again and i sure missed the macaroon making at her place.

Then there is no buka with the rest of my polymates due to our tight schedules (except the usual crew) . In all, this yr was a break record. 27 of the days are spent breaking fast at home. . It was a vast difference from my many days years back. busy breaking fast with different cliques, visits to geylang at night and shopping in town. It could most certainly be because i was not in favour of eating out and kept feeling the necessity of NO CROWDS, pls, thank you. well i hope WIFE doen't mean less time with my friends to do ctching up with.gawd, i feel so guilty but i hope they understand my reasons. And of course buka with my cuzzie was the first and we enjoyed it and i'm glad i made it eventhough it was impromptu. I love them so much

feeling groggy already. i just wanna wishe everyone who drops by here a happy Hari Raya. Maaf zahir dan batin.