i'm sexcited!

i'm excited but i'm worried
I'm happyand overjoyed

I'm so awake though i've not slept. It's so strange how anxiety can perk one's energy

The aunt has never used inai and never loved inai. But she honoured to wear them for me..i hope it does well.

Gawks.. i'm hours away to move to a big step and waking up with not just pillows but my darling daim. no longer smeagol coz he will be to priceless to be someone Smeagol.

The heart is going "thump.. thump", and it still does.
and it'll be pumping real hard as the time passed.

hmm i just can't wait for the looong break from work it's the first i got this long break

i'm not done yet

well i'm still not asleep though i'm sleepy.. 2 hours more to get ready for work so i feel insecure to sleep and obvershot.

Anyway i just remembereed my little hunney buney. She disallowed,refused to allow me to get married. She insisted,convinced and comforted herself that i will not get married becoz i luv her. She felt that i am her "raven". (Supposed to be a cartoon character.I have not watched it myself!)
I guess she's got the insecured feeling that i'll ditch her.. plus i'll be on a jetplane str8 after our wediing..gawd she'll hate me if she finds out. Her innocent and sweet face will turn sour. Her gentle character when she handles me ha ha i felt so loved by her and i hope she understands that marrying her uncle hedir wun change my status of love for her. SHe will still be my first niece. My darling angel. And i love her so much for the respect she gives me.
my lil niece is so cuddly sweet. Can't help but pity her and i hope she still wanna take photos with me when i get married this coming weekend.

Talk about the next coming monday, i'm off to visit two cities. Let's just pray that the weather is fine and alrigt and there is no storm and No tsunami ..insyallah.

Now i'm contemplating to take more off days this week..and maybe i should since i still have abalance of 5 days even after the raa days already taken..hmm i'll decide by tomorrow since i can't sleep of late..hmmm works just sux-full stop.

a new face

we baked cookies this morning,sis and i and ended at the stroke of twelve.. and during breaks i managed to upload the design for this blog.

Nothing new but just straining my brains.. i know it needs some sleep.. but i'm not sure why i have fear of sleeping lately.

*phew! I've finally changed the chick lay out..after some time.

so wat happened for the whole of this month?
-it has been a long July turned quick; felt long becoz work was extra long hours these month. "THANKS" to someone grrh!
-LATE FOR WORK:-
COuntless this month.. I could get fired i guess but i hope not. I need the money. The shifts are kinda tight and SLA sux. Boi i totmarketing jobs were the werst where you need to get targets,i was so wrong. Our SLA are so affected that i wished i could just cut the callers line for being so sick.
-looking on a brighter side i just can't wait for it to end BECOZ i need a LOOONG BREAK; If only i could take the whole montH! i so hate the work climax. i hope it gets better when i get back sigh~

-i had visited the SPA, PA campsite, Visit my in-laws to-be, had a small celebration for mom at home with the extended fammily,cleared my room, finished my itineries for my wedding, went to the bridal, sent out my cards, booked our honeymoon destination, met up with old friends and the list goes on...all stretched out in July. Ironically i felt much more tired nowadays though i'm not working at Starbucks..

-I've been cranky and temperamnetal without my hubby to be.

-no sleep is enough lately.. though i've got a new bed, it's not comfy till it's over; the wedding that is.

-and here i am still not asleep since early morning.
Gawd i feel so sick and nauseaous.. and not go for any MC this week

this weeks gonna g o off pretty fast.
Receiving calls from well wishes and old friends.. some bringing gd news while some will not be able to make it to my wedding.Booohoo :( due to work commitments and overseas trip..sigh. but thank god they're nice enuff to inform me earlier. Nevertheless i do hope tosee the rest.

I received an early present from echa *hugs*!! i can make my own fondue!!! yummy! but ut has to go on sometime next time.. i need to lose weight and sadly we planed to use it for my solemnisation but looks like it wun happen!ARgh! my mom is so against it..darn. i wish i am more in control..sigh~

Memoirs

"Was doing some chores when i was remnded of something, Sleng and nger, ring a bell"-message by X.
Of coz i did!
Of late i've been receivng tonnes of well wishes,reminiscence of the memories we had between u and me.. thank you pple..reserve it for my wedding day as well aight, I'm really touched and moved by your sincere messages. hang on there few days more!
Thank you for reminding me of all the great times we had.

The list goes on to why u were remembered. Gd or bad. You guys have been the people that shaped me to being me. I am grateful i met you guys by chance, be it in school, outside , at work.

For teh people waiting for their card. Thank u for ur patience.. unfortunately stamps are hard to come by esp when i get down the bus, walking home, there ain't any provision shop. Going to work is just facin a steep slope and dispatch vans. No provion shop again. Singapore POST and SAM are kilomtres away..so that explain my "rajinnes"

Went down to my ol' second home. My third place they call it on Friday. gawd i miss myself hanging about and having fun. No stress. no bickerings. no hate wars. No counts on who do wat and when. so i'm keeping a big secret bout this only sis knows. hahaha i'll spill the beans once the excitement is arriving hahaah else it's all suspense lah dey... muahahahahaaa

seulb ginddew

I'm feeling shaken..i'm one month short to being blessed my parents. I pray i'll be fine and all and i hope i dun mash my makeup FM is putying on me.
My mom have been panicking all season since the engagement on our wedding prep.But now she's calm(hmmft). Unfortunately dad and me just got hit.Sis will probably get hit on the day itself, wheere she'll be the busiest co-ordinator. ever.
Anyway back to dad.. he just realised that he has a DOZEN AND DOZEN of pple to invite.. *Faints* and i'm freaking out coz he's asking permission for me to cut my guest list.. see lah when i had him to Prepare and before we did our catering he WAS CONFIDENTLY VERRRY SUREEEE that we will not hit the max pax per person.. which of coz mom and me finds it hard to believe..So it really happened EVEN with the increased guest list that we prepared.. so how.. i die lah.more sleepless nights .. need to find a quick solution. quick....!