burrpss

26.03.05
In an hour, i've consumed almost two sticks of Carrots, one tuna Bun and a prawn bun. I've just cleared my first hour of the 12 hours i'm working today. Bowel movement erupted just 15 minutes ago and it looks like it is set to go for another.. its traumatising me.

i'm growing out of my passion doing shift work. i cant hang out with my friends too much. either i'm too busy or they r too busy. Same goes for my smigel.

End of the month coming soon.. it's scary how fast time flies.. in two months time gonna have my special fren who has been behind me all the time getting hitched to her beloved. She filled me up when i was bored and empty. We shared our sorrows, our fun and we had loads of laughter. the big walks, the beach swims, the party life, every inch of life experience we did it together. The troubles, and problems,the opinions, the gossips, the tears and the late nights that happened as if it was just yesterday still fresh in my head.I pray that insyallah things go smooth and all blessings for her life long happiness.

Sometimes i'm not even too sure why i have the insecurities reaching deep inside me. I'ld feel a stinge of being lost on my own world. When i'm in deep thought, i'd think of what is my friend doing now? how well are they doing? I'll be thinking if they're still thinking of the times i had together with them. Have i neglected them and how come i never receive their calls no more..Is it because 'm a woman and that's why I'm feeling all this

In life i may have treasured my Smigel and my family but i learn that my friends are just as special be it friends from anywhere.