if i ain't got you - Dedicated to my dearest and my dearest friends

*Dearest friends you should know who you are *winks*

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

wat the heck.

stoopid. tats it. i've reached the brim where all fingers point to either the service desk or the field engineers. What are the Account Managers doing? ass. and all the case is to be solved by us incxluding those unrelated ones.

OH COMMON! there are five heads and you want just one head to solve stupid problems within one minute and five heads to solve thousands of users. That is bull. And why the heck do you put your company's money to dust, IT Managers and BES Admin? when you left your thousand dollar training guide on the shelf collecting dust and call the hotline to answer stupid simple questions. This is so sick.

And what more, the great team leader i had is leaving and you are leaving the team dumped with problems and more problems.. internally this sucks. I'm not being infidelity to this job but it just doesn't turn me on like it used to when i first started. I began to see the political challenges faced and shun away. work is now with my eyes facing only the PC.

Only one kambing befriended me on aidil adha 2005

*yes mission accomplished,... got sis her pressie and got the pair of cuzzies a beyblade each and a controlled racing car for him.Met Smigel for dinner before getting home and rest.As usual i end up screening for my personal fetish of shopping..argh*

Aidil Adha
where are all my kambings??... "they need to walk from Australia to Darul Islah before they can be slaughtered..??" claimed a kambing.. I was so not looking forward for this day to happen. Since i was young never have i failed to see & smell the awful kambings when i prayed. But these poor kambings made me lend some soft spot for them along the years.

The wooden stable built for temporary storage at Darul Islah was bare;empty;clean... no penghunis..Saddens to see it happen here and how bad it was when i realised that these kambings are not here yet. It has been part and parcel of my journey in life. Every year without fail, i followed my parents to watch them slaughtered .. From the first batch of kambing till the last kambing. My bros will help catch the kambings with their friends and male cuzzies, the stronger ones will shed the fleece and the old, chop the body parts of the kambings to medium chunks while moms will cut them to smaller pieces for easy storage in the freezer and seperate shares to be brought home.. I remembered helping mom once and couldn't help but came home with a bad headache unable to get rid of the smell and the sight of blood that rewinded and played in my mind time and again. For two weeks long.

This year i willed to help mom again coz she's getting older and not getting stronger. The equipments were in place,prepared a week beforehand in her nice little market trolley. At the very last minute we were told that the shipment was delayed..

First time, i spent the first day at home on Aidil Adha. All of use dispersed early with no directions as to where we should head after prayers. Last time when i was young, at least we had our grandparent's house to gather. NOw i have none of them.

I caught up with sleep but even then, the time seemed to travel too monotonously. We wait in eager to hear good news and prayed that miracle would happen, the ship with the kambings will arrive this sat afternoon. But alas,news broke, we were told that we had to wait till sunday afternoon for the shipment to arrive.. The tents and stable will be brought down from Darul Islah tomorrow morning.

Dad and his friend,went to MUIS earlier this afternoo to get confirmation as to whether the kambings will arrive tomorrow morning.They were told that the shipment is most likely to arrive only late afternoon.

I once was told that to get Pahala Korban, we have to sacrifice the Kambings within three days from Aidil Adha. Too many kambings to clear.. not enough time they feared. So what is to become of the fleet of kambings that were ordered.. almost 200+ of them was to go to Darul Islah.

Such tragedy that happens and surfaced, we came to yet another news shock of no kambings for Raya korban. Mudah-mudahan it might not happen again. insyallah.

15 days after 2005 and so much happenings

with my heavy schedules affecting my sleep, my mind and my time with Smigel .. it's bringing my life back to depressions.
2005 was a phasing phase of long schedules. need to management my time more efectively.
I forgot my sis pressie as well as ekhsan's eventhough i placed a reminder on my PDA. so much for another reminder on my blog.
Then no time to do updates on happenings in life..

Lots of expected changes. Line has been bustling since December and the start of this year. Too many cases to follow up and get back to customer. Forwarding of feedback to the product side for customer's behalf.

Am at work now and most probably my department will be off to TAMPINES.might/maye high possibility...*ring the bell.. back to zero where i used to wake up freaking early in the morning to go to school..darns.We will might be re-located to Telepark. For some reasons, it was somehow due to the team's expansion and need of manpower. Then we will have to upgrade ourselves with more technical support on more IT based problemos..so more ongoing courses to attend. Less sleep more train rides to work. more temptations to shop. *gulps in distress.only way to find out is the lunch occasion this wednesday with the big boss to confirm of our migration..

I'll be preparing to make a big change in joining Orchard Parade Hotel this month... i'm leaving OB for good.. but not starBucks yet. Smigel's been telling me that i can cope without Starbucks but the passion is still there and lifting that heavy weight is too depressing and he's fearing that i'll dip into depression with too much stress. No more one day week work at starbucks. I have to perform just as i did three years back. Consistent, upgrading and adapting to the system's change. Did my last catching up with the OB people. last meeting attended a few sundays back. worked on my coffee passports again... And spending time with them was a blast. i had less sleep and gladly i was able to squeeze some time with my parents and with the love ones. Even played some games and realised how dumb i am when it comes to playstation and x-box games!

Sis's mom is sick and it's touching how her mom reacted cool with her condition.Her strength made me respect her even more. i feel for kak juli. Wateva your decision is i'll support u. i may advise u but the final decision is yours and i'll love you for watever decisions u make. Hopefully cik Aton doesn't need the second op, should this operation goes successful. Insyallah we leave this to Allah who will help us. If u are reading this, go eat and keep healthy ok.. dun punish urself with no time and you end up getting sick.

walked down from Somerset till Orchard parade hotel and met a few sec and primary school friends.. all the sae and we exchanged hanshakes.. i was in a rush and taken by surprise into bumping on them that i forgot to exchange numbers. silly me.. then met Ekin at her workplace.. as smily as ever too bad i was already on my way to hospi.. if not we could have hanged out.. but a next time ..we should.

Plans to watch Soccer with cuzzies cancelled as we did not get the tickets..*^&&%@@^^~!!

ANother abandoned plan..next trip, shopping for the little ones, presents.

(Nasa): Sunrise from the West

Get ready, be prepared......

Please read, very interesting article.

The science of astronomy states that the speed of planet Mars has been decreasing in its course toward the eastern direction in the few past weeks to the level we notice the "waver" between the east and the west..and on Wednesday the 30th of July the planet movement stopped going toward the eastern direction..

Then in the months of August and September...Mars changed its course in the opposite direction to the West- and that until the end of September..which means the sun will rise now from the west on Mars!!

And this weird phenomena of the opposite movement called "Retrograde Motion" Most scientist state that all the planets will go through the same once at least and our planet Earth is one of them. Planet Earth will move in the opposite direction some day and the sun will rise from the west!!

This might occur soon and we are unaware!
The rise of the sun from the west is mentioned in the hadith and this is the major sign of the day of judgment, most if not All, the minor signs have occured. Wake up.

Our beloved messenger Mohamed (Peace Be Upon Him) said: "One of the signs of the hour..the sun will rise from the west, where no longer tauba (forgiveness) will be granted" !!

And the strange thing..most of our Shariah scholars mentioned that the rise of the sun from the west occurs only once..on that day..the sun will rise from the west..then again from the east..and continues until Allah wishes..and this is similar to what is happening to Mars..it stops, then it changes its course of direction for a short period of time..then returns to way once it was.

And Abdullah Bin Amro (R.A.) said: (I memorized from the messenger (SAW) a hadith I will never forget..I heard the messenger of Allah (SAW) say: The first aya to come the rise of the sun from the west) [Ahmad]

And the messenger SAW "Allah (SWT) places HIS hand at night to forgive his morning sinners, and places in the morning to forgive his night sinners until the sun rises from the west" [Muslim]

This piece of news is very important as it brings with it a great sign of warning and remembrance of the coming of a new WORLD - the world of the Hereafter And it is also good material for calling others to ALLAH s.w.t. - whether for muslims, the unwary of us or the kufar. When we show this hadith that was told 1400 years ago about this miracle..you will see InshaALLAH, a lot will enter this beautiful religion...And the muslims if they see this phenomena happening in Mars..who knows maybe it would bring them closer to our CREATOR.

May Allah (swt) keep all of us in the Right path and provide us with success in this world as well as in the hereafter.

Please pass it on...
Source: "Ali Babri"

kejam kelip-kejam kelip dah dua kosong-kosong limau

Selamat tahun baru... yeah...yeah... first fresh start of the year was attanding The wedding of yet another 2nd cuzzie wedding and it was bliss. kewl the dais was especially unique... deco was plainly simple but i like! Next, cuzzie to get on the line of a complete couple soon ..plans are on the way.. then the important god-sis!!! yeaahooOO!

then there's big news that another friend is getting engaged on 20.02.2005... waaaaah ehaehae and i'm booked before hand ah yes i've booked my schedule and changed my shifts.. luckily she's smart and she had told me earlier on..

Smigel shared the same resolution ..save money but ended up breaking it- in two days he took 3 cab rides.. hmmph.. waste money rite...!(Macam real jek eh)ahahah but all becoz of me and that the fact that he is too lazy to hop on the bus and go the long way..

Spent the second night of the fresh year seating on the top staircase of my opposite block and enjoying the finger bites view of the south west coast of Singapore.

It was a fresh start of the yr and i'm glad i'm keeping in touch with my classmates from poly and of course my long lost line of friends..

Started the first day of work in 2005 with soya bean and roti cheese and lots of work to do..hmmph~

Must plan a outing with all the cuzzies one day coz i'm receiving calls but unable to synchronise and execute an outing with all of them..

Singapore won the tiger cup semi-finals. yeay.

Some late resolutions:
-More shifts covered wiith Starbucks
-Less movies
-Spend more time with my family tree
-Cut down on taxi trips
-remember important dates
-never late!