Lost yet another soul - El Nino is Back

Sayang sms-ed to inform that he would not be able to lunch with me. His uncle just passed away. Wait till Elmi hears it and he'll say how many deaths we have heard yet again this month. 7? most ever deaths i heard in a month and leaving their beloved to answer for themselves. forgive for my crudeness though i felt fear. So much as i hear about happy engagements and marriage....

El Nino might be hitting us soon. Hurricanes in the West.. droughts to take place in our region. Adakah ini semua balasan manusia kerana melupakan kekuatan Allah? hurricanes will be werst hit worst then Jeeanne thats happening now..... It all reminiscences me to one movie i watched with Kak Juli at west mall: " The day after Tomorrow"... frightful frightening fear of man which happened age due to our ozone depletion... and our unfriendly haze neighbour will be back. blurry mornings say bye to the clear skies... Enough of the coughs and bluerghs that i'm having right now, soon to be cured but with El Nino.. it might just stay.. (* Prays that hopefully i get better fast*).. well just incase if u r unaware, what happens to the west might cause some impacts in the East.. so The forests of Indonesia needs extra care, same to Australia... may there be no forest fires in the archiepelago and no bush fires in Australia.

Mother Nature swinging temperature, so are my moods wishing to move back the clock

Thank you echa for the very nice pictures.. blurr but i'd see it as a new concept nice kewl ehehe help me burn into cd can?? leen and min too puhlleeeeasss~~~!!! (muker tak malu ehk)

life of me and friends whom have distanced away from me due to their hectic schedules are back in my life. those conversations i had with kak mar woke me up and reality strucked me.. Realised that it's been a long time since i sat down and catch up with her life.. 4 years? Happy for her upcoming life (",)

Been feeling wrong lately but dunno why,.. always feeling anger and anger and more anger lately, spinning my mind with technical headaches.blame on lady's monthly illness? i've passed that a week ago.. blame on lack of sleep? i've had loads of sleep. Sayang's been very patient and understanding lately and always hanging on with my cranky behaviour. I need to Control the pressure right now if not i'll be a dead gal hitting pressures at this young age!

just thoughts that i thought that i should not share but i'd just beat it coz its making my headaches thumping me even more...why should i tell every episode of my life and can't i just share with pple whom i only want THEM to know and why should it break out of the circle. why should u just tell everyone what happened and why not let the person whose life he /she went through be the one to tell that person. Maybe it's just updating on the lives of one but i'd love to tell the pple i'm close with myself before he/she gets to know about it. have you ever thought of the reasons why it was kept hidden .. have you thought of the consequences that my happen in the two parties relationships...what good does it make to tell of the stories which you just have vague impressions and an illusion when u were not even there to witness it.Happened to a close gyrlfren and it happened to me..

Played rain during the weekends, met old friends and spend time with sayang. kudos to "Too-er" for the complimentary tickets to theme park.. Sayang came home sick and giddy.. fever the day after..Walked and explored the tranquil vicinity of Pasir Ris and realised how swampy Pasir Ris Park is with trails of swamp and the eerie path that we took that night.Plus the non-stopping rain and the hut-stops we had to avoid heavy rains, it was a cold chilly night. But the exploration brought us to those terraced houses where we managed some glances of our dream house only reachable by fantasies( looking at the rate i spend my money, doubting enough time to save my whole life savings on it and indulge in one of the houses.) Passsed by Echa's house spotting her block (see good term memory) and told Sayang of the raya trip in 2000 which ended till late midnight with a group of poly friends... how me and Kin shared a cab and waited at the once spooky and deserted street right in front of echa's room... Though never have i lived n the East, visiting Paisr Ris made me feel like it was a place i once called home. I miss hanging out in Tampines and how i yearn to go back late and spend time with my friends... half- dead rushing through projects.. boosting energy like some mereless nerdie kid on the block eyes glued to the PC ignoring everything but Redbull and file transfers( of course visits to the toilets were usual, well drinking Redbull affects not only my concentration but my digestion as well)..and how owl-like life we went through reaching school in the early mornings and only getting out of the place(being shoo-ed actually by the administrators) at 9 pm..and spending our allowance at swenson's, coffee bean delifrance,etc for lunch..(macam orang kerja full time) plus the frequent visits to the arcade after every exams and cineplex(oops..) and of course much more

weird.. i used to not believe in those chocolate wraps with slogans.. but one chocolate just helped me in solving a major problem! while munching on Smarties... i came up with a solution which we had been pondering since late morning! so "only smarties have the answer!" by pure luck has made me munch them with thoughts so thanks to nestle for a time like this!


Lastly, thank god that, alhamdulillah, life has been better for me and sayang. Found something new and he's striving for it. He needs all the good luck from me and i'm glad that all the emails sent were worthwhile.

Coughs* *Bluergh*

Feeling so sick today... skin deeped with sweater and all.. sneezing all morning...no time for blogging too much for calling... my sore throats heating.. will be back tomorrow ....dear called and broke great news to me.. Bismillah may it be something he really wants to do.... doa banyak-banyak~

Extra updates.......

heheh just for you guys.. aniwei the first batch of photoes are here and i cant consolidate alll due to different cameraman/camerawomans' work.... so i've added the links to favour different pose.. different angles of maybe the same pple in the picture,... first to reach me was kak juli's photowork. soon to come my uncle's work and waiting for my dear friends to update me.. Lunch with Ezi was eventful.. we swopped places three times because there was limited seats in the food shop( too small for a food centre) then we were glazing at this three ladies who were comparing eye shadow colours.... Felt that their conversation look so much in similar with Ana and Fazlin.. and ezi mentioned.. not forgetting raudhah! eheheeh hmm can't disagree much but they really were like you trios (",) ..Hang on Miss Ezi, dun get fully stressed by your work load.. probably your boss is testing you. mana tahu end of the yr big bonus and pay raise... one and a half hours before i knock off!! weehooo! kenyang and feeling sleepyish...

Complimentary compliments

yeeaaah hoooo! insyallah when end of the month gaji comes in my boss will be getting a complimentary voucher from NTUC? for me!!! sigh maybe NTUC. Could be other things ,.....mana tahu dapat swensen's ke?? waaaah dreams* ... They reward you with every compliment you receive.. so one compliment one voucher.. hmm just wondering and afraid to ponder more that if we get complaints.. macam mana ehk???? and then i received a stupid call regarding a lucky draw i won? sejak bilak did i join into a lucky draw? haven't been shopping lately. And worst thing is i lost sayang's watch manual!????!! have yet to tell him though oh my... so disappointed in myself! sigh boring dead tuesday. My colleagues are always reading on Blackberry.. mati me.. i'm to gear myself and do more research to undersstand the product sob.. sob.. It's so not me doing my hw.. but i've started a lil.. at least a little than none.. must catch up soon.. adios!
* half hour to lunch with Ezi, 3more hours of work(minus my break) and 4 more hours before i meet my sayang!! :P...yeayyY!!!!!

Torturing Sunday wishing for yester- Saturday

Great 2 drop calls and two customers called in the midst of me dreaming and i went ga-ga-.... Luckily it was on Mute. Hehehe so happy that amidst all those Treacharous stupid customers with answers i dun have at all,with answers i believed they deserved to be more appropriate, which i can't even answer properly, i got a compliment from one of the customers yeaaay!!!! an effort for the whole team! I hope there'll be more to come and NO complains at all from any of those stupid customers which now i shall be more nicer with just in case these big shots detest me..comes complaints. then i'm dead.

To Juli Anissa so sorry but thanks for your wishes. To my aunt who blessed me with wishes i thank her for her support. Grateful pple who came and smiled for me i thank you guys to my "young uncle cum 2nd cousin"(as we have a weird family tree) thank you so much for the poem and that Fa-lout actualy read out something loud from his message... bikin paisei*%^&^)(..

For my make-up artistes , ain, Kak juli and lout ..alas! you pple made me gorgeous tat day * ehems*
More compliments should go to ain.. my buffer gyrl and my video cam gal.. i want to see wats in store in the actions at my hall which i anticipated!!

Yeah my Photographers Wak Sani and echa lin fa-lout julee and of coz sayang's cuzzie.. share me the pics ok!

Special thanks to my precious, favourite aunt who came so early to cook for me i owe her lots!! Helped to deco my hantaran as well..And the other who came to was the dishes making me feel so guilty.. patut my cuzzie yang cuci!

To my "Auntie" who insisted in sponsoring the cake which had initailly been paid for.. the small event would never have been successful with all these people around.. Picture will be out soon just sit back and wait for links to be expanded ( dat is if i gaet my photographers to update me ehehe)

Save save and i shall have to wait for the big day now... dub dub..dub dub .. thumping hearts
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Just sharing this funky agile cat imposing into an afro, mohawk and a vamp-pee etc... courtesy of Shamieks!!
I'm innocent!

Morning Madness>>am i a Sup3rwoman?

while people go to sleep i'm working night shift again... nasib baik juga dorang kluarkan roster ni at least kalau kena roster yang straight malam... mati guer kepenatan... bored. i've been filling my hours listening to music .. kepo2 enter pple's blog and stupid pop ups kept appearing that i resolved to stick to my own blog. takut termasuk porno nanti kena bambu ngan system admin...dah lah tu tengok rekod, ni budak senyap2 masuk msn online pakai browser ... tak cari na'as. I'd rather keep myself to msn and remain blogging than to kena ban from logging to the internet!! yes i cant live with them especially working at nighT! i'd sleep of boredom. Talked to Rauf. tak pernah2 berbual ngan dia ah ko ni budak pun bole tahan juga. Always see him never say hi or bye.. ahah well gd start tho will be seeing him more soon anyway. Hmm i've added shamieks and win's link which i found cool and creative. Instinct and effort there.. love the designs.

Been spending more time with sayang.. got to get off that track.. puasa is soon and raya too.. we've compromised to see each other less often soon...kuih canne nak buat kalau telur mahal?? confirm nanti harga telur naiK! (like i make the kuih eh.. eheheh well no kuih for mom means buy outside or make kuih with no telur?? hmm no tarts this year??? gosh it'll be a so different Raya celebration...

P/S my poly frens.. if u r unsure of the directions and address please dial my handphone and press send. Call me.

To Ezi & Echa soorrry that i couldn't hang out longer on tuesday and left early while finding HIS bday pressie...gota understand aight.. Happy belated birthday to my fren USOP. Sheda's BB... eheheh dah tuer ehk! 14 september marks his anniversary on Earth. Moga moga panjang umur and may your dreams come true (",)..

Everything geared and ready left with some glitches to cover..

Starbucks.. why.. can't i just leave it and quit from being a PT Barista. My longest ever work experience and i'm still hanging on eventhough i've graduated from school. Broke my promise with daddy just to work there and still working there though i was to resign 3 yr's back by my dad... degil eh.. Sigh, lovely customer's like body builder Tony, who has a lil kid Lucinda. Curly hair,Big Round eyes.. cute.. and now i see her grew up..with cranberry juice and lollipops and small cute cups were her fetish things she likes from starbucks..and now learning to eat bagels.. Sadly she seldom visit us no more (tapi bapa dia hari 2 kluar masuk beli kopi doppio)she's busy with Golf classes, Piaono classes.. Rob our superman guy.. darlings but getting old by day. Greg the often happy mood customer with Grande no foam Latte.. so happy to see me when i worked on weekdays.. He used to visit us a few times a day then he stopped and now he's back to fill my customer profile. Nice guy who longs to work in Singapore and hopes he doesn't get posted out of Singapore and back to US.. he loves Sinagpore and their Starbuucks in OB. Mat mat California.. ada jer nak kopi kecik la, ice and of coz they go for heavy doses of coffee to boost their mentality to keep awake.. and their frequent visits to our small restroom. Cntre has such big toilets, u can take a bath and yet they chose Starbucks ehahaha... macam macam lagik.. continues to work tomorrow till 4.. and now i'm working keeping awake till 8am.. neext task i can do: email email , read magazine, yoga book and more emails and blackberry notes and again email....
Thanks to my Phone that i can clip small pics and load them.. touching for someone who has a spoilt Digi and still yet to buy one.. sigh... well one day if i got time, new blog face.. so long to be updated soon......and more $$ to buy new digi or should i just repair them?

Sunday Morning

Guess wat...This will be my pillow in the early mornings later...Courtesy of sheda.. useful u know.. I can't possibly bring ifah's sweet pillow as it was a bit big and can't fit into my locker.

Night shift today and all the aunties were spulurging me with so much food.. i've rejected baked rice,nuts and chocolates.. and i cant fit my lunch box of pineapple tarts my mom made (slipped it out of my home as i wouldn't want her to be aware of it..ahah), peach danish was given by my colleague for supper gosh.. this whopper chicken was shared with one of the makcik who insists that i eat something even though i already had dinner with sayang.Sweet of him to send me to work hehehe..

LAST NIGHT*
Went for a nite walk trip with my sis and cuzzie along with some of my friends last night and only reach home in the morning. Caught a magnificent overview of PSA and Pulau Bukom from the top of Kent Ridge Park. Sentosa's view from Larbrador Park was as interesting as it was at Kent Ridge.. so tired was i that i slept till 4pm today get ready to work and now i'm still yearning for my bed... read all my friend's blog till i dunno where and what else to read ...
my looveable and i love her...
Atifah Qoshima

Deepest Condolences

Of late i kept thinking of grandma, cried for grandpa and now my deepest condolence goes to my aunt who left the world yesterday evening leaving behind two wonderful kids, HAzulina and Loike and her husband. Uncle Jaafar. Auntie Schweitzer Noor Isabelle aka Khatijah's death broke as a shudder for our family.She was young. It was unexpecting as we never thought it was gonna be this soon. She was a great aunt whom i regret not getting close with. Though she was not of blood kin to me, she married my uncle who were adopted from my great grandmother. I'm left with her memories when she used to write me personal postcards back in her hometown when she was away. I remember waiting eagerly for her postcards from my lettebox. i remembered she bought me a set of medical kit to play doctor and nurse with my cousin. For more than ten long years i was so busy with my life that i forgot her importance in my life. I hope not to repeat the mistakes again and my respects goes to her for her belief in Allah and for being a great aunt. a mother and a wife to my uncle. I love her. i love my family and i hope for strength that love brings back my family to carry on with our lives.
Death surrounds me these couple of weeks .Two weeks back, mama's cuzzie left ke rahmatullah. On thursday a family friend's mom Passed away. This grandma was a sweet lady. Nice and cheery, soft spoken. I was supposed to visit her last week but Fate never got me to meet her the last time. So down and tired. I need a break for rest and sleep which i wun be getting..
Forgive me if i've ever done something hateful and hurtful to any of you. I hold no grudge to those who hate me and i hope to be strong and hold on..

semangat kerja!!!

guess wat! i was so eager to reach my workplace on time thati came out one hour and a half earlier!!! semangat giler!! becoz i thought i'll be late and i rushed all the way to get here on time. cursed the Bus 154 driver for halting my time and the slow traffic in my neighbourhood's expressway. Then big anger came when the train would arrive in 7 mins time! early morning still must wait that late...i though my shift started at 9.30 and i was so sharp that i came a minute earlier.. bad enufff after clocking my astonished colleague looked in amazement and told me that i was supposed to start at 11 am.. should i have known, i would have slept on my bed and woke up at nine!!! lesson learnt.. shifts are a killer@!

dubb dub ..dubb dub..

previous supposed to update Entry
wow.. second day at desk station and my heart was beating extra fast... like wow.. i can hear my own heartbeat beating so loud when the two seconds beep to warn me of an incoming call. yess only 2 seconds to get prepared! goodness.. during lunch there were consecutive calls which really panicked me.. eheheh so pai\sei* la..

Whoops i forgot about friday eheh sorry kak juli .. u booked me so early in the week and yet i thought i was free.. meeting up with my old colleague later but it will be at billy bombers which i never was unable to attend to coz i forgot that sayang wanted to get some stuff..

yeah i bought him a watch nice. something he liked and wanted for a long time.. leather strap. ellesse.elegant.in fashion.smart. casual. of course my lady gyrls you'll get tto see them soon.. hehe

Saturday
my manager so badly wanted me to work to replace my sick friend at Liang Court at 7.45am.. sigh since i havent been my best and doing a great job i guess it's time i help cover someone else's shift just like they always do when i had to work for my Full time job... cool the new ice lemon passion tea is so tangy nd zesty that it makes me feel so perky on a saturday morning.. awke and refreshinG! got back and went out again to meet sheda and the gang and i was late.. very late u knoe.. there i met the ever sweet ana whom i have not met like months.. the eksen garang ezi.. the cheery lin and raudah and the always kacau pple fyr.. ahah and relaxed pple, is, sop and min. Kudos and danke to echa and usop for the tickets they got for everyone to watch wicker park.... and the nice snacks.. grapes unwashed strawberries! we were munching and munching.. yes chips and drinks too! too bad sayang was unable to join us..
and raudah wants to go to "Phanket" ..(Bangkok and Phuket!)... and the abrupt discussion to go johor and play big Go-Karts.. soo to be updated by them.. goodness right in the middle of a path was our meeting table...! Had not enuff fun as the night ended so quickly and off i went to my best lady's house for a big occasion which i've long waited .. like 4 yrs.. or more!

Sunday.. woke up dragging my self from her sofa bed and wished i could enjoy my sleep but got to be more responsible and lend a hand to cik aton and my god sis. yesimportant day for her and i'm proud i was in the invitation list ahaks!!! my dear younger god sis coming a lil late, ended up bbeing there around two.. eventhough she was supposed to be there on Saturday! we hanged out for a few hours to gossip and did gyrl's stuff and before i realised it's already 5.. everything went well and we took loads of pictures.. !! vcam and everything we can have, to record! Dunno why but that night i was cranky that i purposely relied on my tired sayang to go all the way to my god sis's house to pick me up, send me home .. i felt sorry to spoil his relaxing sunday by going one round and back home but i thanked him for being so bearable and send me home, tired but walked me home from jurong east all the way as i didn't want to take a bus.. yes walked.. his patience really tells me that i should not be too dependable and take him for granted.. sunday was a short weekend.. but this is my first and last weekends off as the rest of my workday will always have either one day rest day or none at all... sigh..