console.writeln("compile-execute...coping with changes")

1. The people upstairs are doing renovation and drilling all around!
2. the pain is unbearable(i fell and hurt my fourth finger. seems like the doc suspected that i hurt my tendons and we shall have to wait for the x-ray reports to finalise that there ain't any fracture. i hope its just a tendon tore though the pain is shit! it's pain streches all the way to my elbow
3. It's too warm

It's how unlucky i could get. 4 days MC in a month and both accidents involved my bones. i guess i need to increase my calcium consumption~bleargh.

visit to the polyclinic was much worst. it was very full of sick patients whu dun look sick at all and the elderly seeking appointment treatments. Then for the fifth time, i received the new appointment card, and again my race is CHINESE.

Been at home playing quake 3 and x-box but i can't hold the controls properly so it's useless i kept losing more than winning. rite now i'm typing with one hand. aiy aiy ~

I'm close to broke next month with the less shift i'm working affecting my service allowance and my shift allowance it sucks~ plus for the first time in 2005 i broke my record in working only twice in the month of April instead of working 12days a month..

i miss my pink health and i just hope this shit ends. Team of BlackBerry down to three and how not to complain? so shitty that i have the ugliest shift! argh!GH!H!H it's so sick that you have to work with lil choice. Leave freez so is my time off creditted.i just hope they get them soon coz i'm planning for a getaway soon. i hate work i want to become tai tai!

Of late i had came across some old pictures of my times with C31A. boi i miss them much and can't wait for a re-union soon.

Smigel will be out of night shift soon and i'm very glad about that. so i have more time with him **blushes. i miss him so dearly!

and of course there were days that i stayed at home to meditate my back.and i sleep and drink and eat and rest and sleep and still it's weak i can feel the pelvis burning when i sneeze. so imagine if i get my sinus it's pain every day non-stop.

I did not get the voucher for mom's anniverary instead we had a buffet dinner the following day with salmon etc etc. we had cakes and of coz sushi! yummy!

Anybody with recommendations to prof photography for a wedding? i'm in need of one! oh yeah wil be attending my fren's wedding soon in december! so exciting@! mw- ex lecture mate getting maried and we r having the same mak andam ..nyeh nyeh nyeh! hoepfully the deal goes well for me and her. insyallah.

Requested for my SIngPass and still have not received them. i'm so dead meat..e-filing blom buat! arggg stupid them looks like tomorrow i need to make a trip to CPF Building then to IRAS.. arg!I'm glad i have my rest day this sat if not .. i wonder when i could have it all settled.. yikes.

And meeting with the bride to be.. lesss than a montH! weehoo!

soon i'm booking for the khursus for orang nak kawin muahaha so weird but all of us have to go for it. such a bummer. i hope i can drag it till next january.

the signs of the world ending is much too scary

according to mum, the world is aging, it's getting too much heavier.

Have you ever realised, that everything is created by Allah? the sand extracted are just mere sand being taken out and made into bricks, and the bricks fell on earth again to build our houses. It's probably just that we have re-arranged god's creation..making the world inbalance. what we have now is all Allah's even your roh and jasad.

How scary could it be? one disaster after another. And heard from mom in the latest story, a volcano is gonna erupt soon.

Tanda tanda dunia akan khiamat.
- There are at least 1: 50 men to women.
- Young adults will blame their parents that religion is not properly furnished to them.
- Young adults felt that they rather hang out with their friend than to be with their father.
- The world will be folded. Tsunami?
- Gunung akan melempar batu. Volcano?
- The buildinga are piercing through to reach the sky
- manusia yang diberikan ilmu, lebih suka meninggalkan ilmu agamanya untuk berfoya foya dengan keduniaan.
- Orang iman akan dimatikan lebih awal
-everyone is more pleased with electronic devices but not the getting the full set of hadiths
- Generasi baru akan salah membawa agama dan akan memimpin dgn salah
etc
etc
etc

i am sad and i do hope i dun live in the akhir zaman.
when i was young, i used to think of my fears, up on twelve floor. i used to think and imagine my fears that i'm high up. ignorance, negligence with what school has thought me, i grewup forgetting my fears.how i should have feared the signs. and now i'm on 24. i fear even more.i hope i wun go higher further.

after 18 years, i realised that what ever has been written in the QURAN is happening right in front of me. It has been happening and it's happened. with the people around me. with the friends i have.

When we reached the akhir zaman. it's even worse. I pray that i do not live till the time. Doa ku supaya if one day i have kids, if i'm given a chance, anak-anak ku dapat kesyurgaan dan serta keluarga-keluargaku dan orang-orang iman.

when judgement day comes,the world will be quiet. everyone will go to one place. the dead rised. everyone wil be without clothes. no one gets high on hormones. You dun look for your loved ones. you care only for yourself.you remeber nothing but Allah.FEAR surrounds. has all this signs happened even before i saw this signs?

i've written enuff the rest is between me and Allah.

i cry.

have i not enough?

sometimes i'm not even sure why i forced myself to join IT. When i was choosing school, i lied to myself. i chose IT but deep inside i'm sure i could have scored better in biology or even chemistry, maths or even malay. but i was too negative. i hate the teachers who dun give you the realistic view of the world and always look down on weak students.WEAK? if it was sure to be weak i would have slumped my GCE results then. It's ironic how i could have been so great in sec school and pay too much attention to self-bias teachers who just can't wait to get students to hate them. i hate my biology teacher. but i had interests in it but that made me lose my chances. i guessed i've got a a major hate teacher sentiments when i was in sec school. but hell yeah i Scored and proved my point and i should have not listened to your past remarks and pursue my own choices. This Diploma cert is just a shit to me now. yes it does bring ur income higher but overall, i'm not doing what i've loved to do. 6 yrs down the road, i'm still not satisfied with the diploma i received. It would have been selfish of me and it's always the same arguments that human just seems unhappy to get enough. i just felt that my world crashed the day i got my O results and i'm still not over it. it's so much worst than a BGR break up saga. i do hope the current test results will just help me bring more light to my future and my ambition...if not i guess the closest ambition is becoming a tai-tai (provided Smigel can help me become one. heehee). am i a procastinator?

nuff said i just finished formatting my system and hope it goes on well again. now with the password and stuff. i just need the spyware stuff to refrain attackes yet again.. hmmph any suggestions?

Smigel just bought the X-box Console so lucky me can now swop games with him.. hehehe probably got the craze from the frequents rounds we did at Plaza Singapura!

been weeks since i met Smigel and passed another week with no meet ups with him..haiz i'm missing him even more than ever!

Did some catchin up with the bride to be. it'll be the first ever my closest fren who has been my listening ear, my guide, my fren, my gossip partner, my partner in crime, my mentor and most importantly the person i grew to love so much like a sister to be wedded very very soon. I'm so happy for her and i hope all goes well. prayers to her big day going well and smooth. i'm gonna have to book my leave very very soon.. the big sigh is gonna be left aside and i'm feeling the pinch of how her stress out days before the final few months went for her....once u're dere.. u'll noe how the feeling blows all over u, right, no?

i am back..bacck sprain

it's been a while since i changed the blog lay out and has been days since i blog or was it weeks? had been entirely busy these few weeks. Work.house movement. work again. out with Smigel. out with mom and dad. pay bills here and there..

MC three days
It's my first time getting a long MC such as these. plus my off day is on friday so total 4 days rest..supposed to but had to work juga on friday at Starbucks coz i placed schedule before i got this strained back. overworked i guessed.

Deadlines.
waiting for lout who first had an extended lessons than the diploma show thus one month delay. She has drafted the deco just to get the equipment.

Baby is unhappy working night shift now. i'm more upset coz now we have less time together but i have more time to work Starbucks though. then there is the appraisal which will either promote me or let me stay stagnant. Can't i opt for increment instead? sigh..

Starbucks
Been there for long and with the sprain back it's not helping me to be on gd terms with dad. he is blasting the loudspeaker on my promises to quit 3 yrs back and i still did not quit till today. Parents are blaming me for the strenuous work there hurting my back and the lack of rest. haiz ..

Kl pictures will be up soon.

Golden Shoe complex -closed for renovation. Welcome Banquet at Clifford Centre. I might be moving to telepark and i might not. sigh. where's my drive to work???